It's Been A While

I've been having trouble lately staying focussed. The problem, I think, is that focus on any particular thing or idea is futile, because everything is always changing. I've tried to live for a few days at a time without focussing on anything...literally closing my mind to the possibility that anything or a piece of knowledge can truly be revealed if studied intently. But that is very unsatisfying. Focussing on nothing is equally difficult, but not impossible. I just don't have the patience or the energy to dive into a project like that right now. I guess normal is really just the inability to definitively know anything. Maybe it is some secluded part of the human brain, yearning for stimulation, that makes it possible to accept nothing at face value.